Portraits in Words
Monday, February 28, 2011
Idea of Pain in Retrospect
Explosion (Your Knives)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Muse of Despair
MUSE OF DESPAIR
for Jill
like the greatest writers, I understand:
sorrow is a joy for itself,
that one would experience such a loss
of something so great
as to cause pain.
despair is my muse,
suicide the wings to my words;
depression is an inspiration
while my pen flies across the Moleskin page.
they are not my experiences to claim,
just fascinations:
rape, ridicule, torture and torment,
society’s shames and my sparks of author’s fire.
brush lives with me, and you will find me bright,
happy, in want of a fine pint of Mac & Jack’s
and a good word or ten.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Emotion Rearranged
EMOTION REARRANGED
for Ben
trapezes and trapezoids
science and science-fiction
demons and demands
this is life! this is it! this is hailing the devil
in me, in you, for what else can we do?
stop fighting, cease crying, start lying.
you lie to yourself and you live a little
because lies push the truths aside
and let impossibilities in.
I awaken to bacon; I rhyme all the time,
and it’s all an act.
I’ve got you fooled?
I fooled me twice; nicely done, nicely done.
I rend truth from songs and shows,
and give voice to squirrels –
for out of the mouths of small woodland creatures
comes death.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Chasing Enigmas
CHASING ENIGMAS
for Marcus
speaking is like walking:
put one word in front of the other,
deliberately, so you do not trip
or tumble
pursue perfection with me.
I will forever think you wise
or at least whimsical
when our thoughts tangle and tear
exploding in fits of theory and conjecture
to keep us awake until dawn
but this is lonely
inferiority traps you behind your eyes
enlightenment traps me behind mine
I know too much
I articulate too little
I never bleed audibly
blood is metaphor
and metaphor is lonely
Particles
PARTICLES
for Joel
I am absorbed
by the circuitry of Mother Technology
particles of something meaningful in hours
spent labored over lifeless innards
I breathe in human presence
and it is good
human presence forgets me
and it is good
I chose to immerse my whole self
in electronic figments and wired dreams
so when you left
I was left unstable
glitching, twitching,
alone.
a personal hell of splinters
crafted delicately out of my hybrid thoughts
stabbing me until I am forced to succumb
to emotion.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Passing the Saints
PASSING THE SAINTS
for Brad
I am compartments within compartments,
boxes within boxes,
bowls within bowls.
I hold more than you know
or can hope to know, because I am all of it.
revolution is redefined as I sit in whitewashed rooms
and let my mind ruminate, wander too far
until I'm not sure you are my reality anymore.
a nebulous hope consumes me:
someday
truths will be irrelevant,
morality will be universal,
and I will start it all, the catalyst for change,
for passing the saints with their snobbery,
for I am holier than they.
I do not succumb to hypocrisy,
nor lust after my own reflection in the river
or the church hallways.
there is only one way
to find out.